Hmnn, after much thought and after thought, i am finally here to do something which is very close to my heart, writing....
Funny enough that i find words failing me. Kind of writer's block and i am now realising after around 15 attempts that getting off the blocks is so difficult. Well i hope attempt no 16 yields some result.
My life is a typical average Joe (or Ginny maybe for a gal) life. Nothing spectacular to boast about, no big achievements nothing. Moulded into the most old fashioned stereotypical styles ie school, college and now settled into a salaried class. Life & Times is my attempt to put into words my ordinary life in an extraordinary way.
A few months ago, my life was in tatters, and i was whole and sole responsible for it. I lost my loved ones, a very special friend and altogether my zeal for life. Not getting into the nittie gritty i had this huge guilty feeling everyday. Did not have anyone to talk to. I was blaming myself constantly. Things got to a point when i didn't have courage to walk a single step alone. I needed some one, i craved someone, anyone who would just be by my side. Day by day this self pity continued. In no time it had evolved into a huge inferiority complex. A ghost that followed me, threatened to engulf me. It was almost as if i was a mechanical living being. I had surrendered to my destiny to my fate. It was during this stage that i had a dream......a dream that changed my life forever.
In my dream i met God, he asked me i have given you life to live why are you throwing it away. I laughed at God's ignorance. I felt as if even he was making fun of me. I said to God, don't you know what my life has become and you ask me the question? To this God flashed his radiant smile and said," Life is what you make out to be, sure you have made mistakes have lost people, but don't lose yourself. The greatest gift that a body can get is the soul and that is what is important. You have sinned its true but by throwing away my gift you are sinning even more. When you make mistake you are human, when you get hurt you are human, when you laugh when you cry you are human, when you are angry you are human. But when you regret your life, that's when you insult me. Each of the human beings are doing what they are destined to do, people will walk in and out of your life but what remains constant is you and your life. Your soul travels through the lives, it takes the trauma through the lifetimes. With this God said," I forgive you for you have sinned, for you are human.
The biggest mistake that you can make is to destroy your own life. So what if you have erred. You make a mistake, you take responsibility and you pay for it. That's what life is all about. Good karma's are your reward bad karma's are your downfall.
Do a good deed you will be benefited, do a bad deed you will still be benefited. The sufferings make us realise the importance of good deeds and good thoughts.
As it turned out when i awoke, i had a different perspective of life. I stopped being alive, i started living.
