I left the worries and the cares behind

I left the routine I needed to unwind

I want to reach for the stars, I wanna stop living behind the bars

I wanna reach a place where the true me I can find

Where I can just put up my legs and unwind

I wanna be a song with the lyrics unwritten

Wanna once for all exorcise my demons

I wanna be the next moment to come

I wanna dig my heels stop being on the run

To get past the nitty gritties, to set my own pace

To get out this burned out phase

I wanna reach a place where the true me I can find

Where I can just put up my legs and unwind

Where the past doest catch up when left behind

Where the future is not walking in a field of mine

Where under the sky it’s only the green fields

Where I only feel the touch of the wild breeze

I wanna reach a place where the true me I can find

Where I can just put up my legs and unwind!!!!

Perhaps I sought a path unknown

Long ahead of me lay the earth covered with stone

I shivered at the sight, I shook with fright

Somehow I gathered all my might

With a heavy heart I started my walk

To a destination that was back of beyond

For miles my eyes stretched, I could only see the haze

I wondered to myself will I get out of this maze

I fell on my knees, the soil in my eyes

I tried to yell but the mud muffles my cries

Deep into the sand I was stuck

Struggling I tried to get out of the muck

I left the shores of the tranquil waves,

My shadow following me to the grave…..

Thousand miles across my feet

I kept on walking, hoping we could meet.

Crossed the mountains crossed the trees

Kissed all frogs none of them turned to prince

Every hand seemed the right one

Only when I touched it left my heart burnt

Surrounded by dreams of hope but found despair

One hand came up, told me I would care

By then my vision had impaired

Good not judge by myself good or bad

But the hand found me, its touch filled my heart

Man of my dreams, pioneer of art

Finally he has arrived, the one for me

Who has set my soul & spirit free

Have You ever loved someone
But knew they didn't care?
Have You ever felt like crying
But Knew you'd get no where?

Have you ever looked into their eyes
And said a little prayer?
Have you ever looked into their hearts
And wished that you were there?

Have you ever felt their heartbeat,
When the lights were turned down low?
Have you ever whispered "God, I love You"
But you'll never let me show?

Love is grand, yet it hurts so much.
The price you pay is high.
If I could choose between Love and Death,
I'd rather choose to die.

So do not fall in love, my friend,
It doesn't pay a dime.
It only causes broken hearts,
Yet it happens all the time.

So do not fall in love, my friend,
You'll hurt before it's through.
I ought to know, my friend -
I fell in love with you.

He was young
His life had just begun
All of a sudden it was taken away
I didn't even get to say the things I wanted to say
Only if God could see
How he could of turned out to be
He wasn't the only one to pay
I still cry to this day
He would have been 24 this year
Sometimes I envision him in my mind
As clear as I would in a mirror
I only hope he knows
that no matter where in life I go
I love him so much
I only wish I could feel his touch
Only if God could see
How much he meant to me
Why won't the sorrow disappear?
Why can't I stop shedding the tears?
I never told him how much I cared
or how much I enjoyed the things we shared
All of mind is filled with hate
Because I never told him of my love
and now it's too late
Sometimes I feel he's here
For he'd be alive today
and I wouldn't think of reasons "Why?" to say

Save the Trees

One Day I awoke frightened and scared,
On a hot humid day, with beads of despair,
I looked around me searching for the green trees
As far as I could see I was greeted by concrete debris

Gone were the lakes where we used to play
The branches of the trees where we used to sway
There was no air, just polluted atmosphere
The vendors were selling oxygen which seemed to disappear

All the faces in the crowd were blackened by smoke.
The forests, the mangroves cleared to shelter more households
With no rains to cool the temperatures soared
The winters were harsh, they chilled to the bone
Everywhere we looked it was a sea of calamity
It was no longer the Earth, but had become a concrete city

Amidst all this I saw an old graffiti on the wall
I cleared the smoke ahead and read it all
It was a message written long and forgotten
As I read the message it brought tears to my eyes
For once I wished I had taken that advice
For in the name of Urbanization we had ignored the Nature’s call
Plant trees my children, the graffiti read, for tress save All

The notebook

As I opened the pages I was transferred back in time,
The soiled pages the dusty look,
The bonded pages which I bought for a dime

I leafed through the pages written long ago
The different shades of letters forming a rainbow
I touched the pages to get a feel,
Every letter stared back at me with a unified zeal
I had cried, I had laughed, I had angered, I had raged
I had sought solace in these very pages
Every time I had a broken heart
I felt the joy across the pages
I left a print of myself across all ages

It bore witness to my first song
The words that made me weak, the lines that got me strong
It held within itself an unknown me
The days with fun, wild and free
My whole life was bound in there every page I looked
Feeling nostalgic once more I sat down to read, “My Notebook”.

The Waves

Evening on the beach….beyond the world’s reach
I lay watching the waves, feeling my body sway
They came from far collecting pace in their arms
They embraced the ocean, spreading their charms
So many moods of the ocean they display
Often are they ignored….the waves

When you seek solitude they lay still
When you are overjoyed, they too showcase their thrill
They add the glamour to the different shades of sun
Whether the golden brown rising or the setting auburn
They play the tune close to your heart…
The songs change when you meet or depart…

I watched them crash & rise and fall
Teaching a lesson of life to one and all
No matter how sturdy or strong the rock or wall
The waves reach their high even after enduring the fall

Although they retreat showing times change
They always come back to rise again!!!

The Terrorist

We both are fighters you and me
We both protect the nation, land and sea
I am indebted to my motherland
You on the other hand are a misguided man

I kill the enemies that set foot on my soil
You kill any one till your gun recoils
I am bound by the duty to protect
You are led by blind faith to destruct

Innocent are the people who you kill
You spray bullets into them and slash at will
Does your faith really endorse your move
Do you really feel heaven will beckon you
Does not your heart cry at the pain
Does it not betray does it not shame

After the massacre you are sane
Calmness engulfs you & you are devoid of pain
Longing for death you wish for it to come
Unknown to the fact that it would be no heaven
At the end of it nothing you gained
No peace, no heroics, no feathers to your name
Nor will you get the prized heaven as you claimed

The Lesson

A Lesson thought, a lesson learnt
I burnt my fingers, I chased the sun
I was too much into me, myself, I
I was brought down to earth from the sky

I had made the hurricane wind my friend
I was in tearing hurry even before the race began
I never stopped to look at life; I always looked down upon other’s plight
Now I know what I lost in my pursuit of the gain
A lesson thought, a lesson learnt
As I always tried to reach the sun

The precious moments that I lost
The little battles that I always fought
The others gave in not for defeat but for love of me
In my arrogance I never allowed me to see
Today I try and reach those times
Can’t get them back for no penny or dime
A lesson thought, a lesson learnt
As I always tried to reach the sun

I am glad it was you

It thought it was love when you have a twinkle in the eye
When you can do nothing and spend every hour just watching the world go by
When your world is Topsy turvy, but still it seems right
When you do all unusual things and do not seem to get the reason why

When all you want is a few moments of bliss
When you see the one and your heart skips a beat
When you only hear music all the time
When even the loudest horns seem to chime

It was what I felt when I first met you
For all my worst nightmares it was a dream come true
The way an unexplained emotion took place
The way you were behind my every phrase

Alas! Destiny had a role to play
And it meant we had to lead on our separate ways
That one thing made my perception about love change
It’s not always togetherness; it’s also means to stay apart
But I thank you for this one emotion that will always remain in my heart
With time it would gradually move into a tiny space
That will be remembered when I gradually grey
I know when I look back I would be glad
For the first time love beckoned it was your name…..

Time has come calling for change

Time has come calling for change…..
Endless and numerous times it has knocked on the door
In our own world, careless and free…happy and devoid of problems galore
We whine when we face the pain,
Time has come calling for change

We feel sorry for the other people, until it happens to one another
That’s the time we really open our eyes, crying foul crying crime
We are the youth we are the future, we are where the hopes end
Time has come calling for change

Beckon one and beckon all, let’s get together, let’s gather all
Lesson to be learnt and acted upon, its an age old adage
United we stand, divided we always fall
Let not the religion, the faith come your way
Let you not be blinded by what politicians say
It’s not them but the onus is on us
This time be sure to lead the way
Get the hands to help and lips to pray

Let there be light let there be strength
Come forward together form a human chain
Let not this time just pass away
Let’s not wait for other generation to lead the way
Let’s not be mere spectators, let’s play the game
The time has come calling for a change.....

How could i miss you

How could I miss you

A star shining so bright, just within my reach…..
Throwing light on my every deed, good, bad or ugly
Laughing, crying, sharing my pain
Always crouching on the ground to break my every fall
I really wonder how I could miss you at all

Right by my side for every difficult move
Learning with me helping me grow
Taking my chiding in your stride
All my steps add to your pride
No matter what I do no matter my age
Your love for me never fades
Really touching were all your moves
In spite of me never stepping in your shoes

All my tantrums and whims and fancies
Some were fulfilled some brushed aside gently
Somehow it never occurred to me
How close to God I could ever be

Its true when they say God cant be everywhere
For each child of his he has given a Mother to care
I had mine at every step of life
But its now that I realize that you shine so bright
To thank you enough words fail me today
You keep shining for me throughout the day
Day in and Day out you guide me through
I love you Aai (Mother) for all that you gave me
For the inspiration, the support and the life
Never will I miss your radiant light again

A New Day will come

A new day will come, of hope, of dream of light
It will engulf within itself, the pain, the fear, the fright….
Once again the flowers will bloom,
Once again I shall lead
It will be the life I wanted, I ll fulfill my every dream

You are my anchor among the only few
You did come forward, you did show the way
You did enlighten my path, you made me brave
In the face of adversity when people faded out
You brought my world alive, you ended my draught

In a calamity made by myself, you came like a rain
You cleansed me with the shower, melted away the pain

I promise you this for once to fulfill
I‘ll be everything that you once thought me to be
The smiles the joys the spirit shall be back
The disgrace will be gone I shall hold no shame

It was never me

The time would come when you would see,
Through the darkness of my soul....
The wrong i did, every time i screamed.......
Please believe me, it was never me..
I did hurt you & i made you cry,
I created a world & trapped you inside
Though i resent the harm caused to you
I was sure you would see through
It was my alter ego, it was never me
Please believe me, it was never me...
I tried to speak, i tried to say
The horrifying past which made me this way,
There was a reason unearthed for years...
The exposure of which brought back the fears
The touch of unknown when i was a child
The trauma i suffered how silently i cried....
Every time i wanted to say, thinking you would believe
Its still true my dear friends, it was never me

As we are today miles apart,
Not by distance but by heart
Forgiveness i do not seek cause its unfair,
For me to be forgiven who inflicted such despair,
But before i cross the miles for my final sleep
A moment of thought is all i seek
The years will go on wiping out my trace
Never will you again remember my face

I am looked down upon with disgrace
Even in the shame and shock of losing you all
Even in my misery & apparent fall
I still promise, i still scream
I still beg upon my knees
Of all the pain, the hurt the grief
Then, now and every time.......
It was never me.......

Short Stories-Life & Times

Hmnn, after much thought and after thought, i am finally here to do something which is very close to my heart, writing....
Funny enough that i find words failing me. Kind of writer's block and i am now realising after around 15 attempts that getting off the blocks is so difficult. Well i hope attempt no 16 yields some result.
My life is a typical average Joe (or Ginny maybe for a gal) life. Nothing spectacular to boast about, no big achievements nothing. Moulded into the most old fashioned stereotypical styles ie school, college and now settled into a salaried class. Life & Times is my attempt to put into words my ordinary life in an extraordinary way.
A few months ago, my life was in tatters, and i was whole and sole responsible for it. I lost my loved ones, a very special friend and altogether my zeal for life. Not getting into the nittie gritty i had this huge guilty feeling everyday. Did not have anyone to talk to. I was blaming myself constantly. Things got to a point when i didn't have courage to walk a single step alone. I needed some one, i craved someone, anyone who would just be by my side. Day by day this self pity continued. In no time it had evolved into a huge inferiority complex. A ghost that followed me, threatened to engulf me. It was almost as if i was a mechanical living being. I had surrendered to my destiny to my fate. It was during this stage that i had a dream......a dream that changed my life forever.
In my dream i met God, he asked me i have given you life to live why are you throwing it away. I laughed at God's ignorance. I felt as if even he was making fun of me. I said to God, don't you know what my life has become and you ask me the question? To this God flashed his radiant smile and said," Life is what you make out to be, sure you have made mistakes have lost people, but don't lose yourself. The greatest gift that a body can get is the soul and that is what is important. You have sinned its true but by throwing away my gift you are sinning even more. When you make mistake you are human, when you get hurt you are human, when you laugh when you cry you are human, when you are angry you are human. But when you regret your life, that's when you insult me. Each of the human beings are doing what they are destined to do, people will walk in and out of your life but what remains constant is you and your life. Your soul travels through the lives, it takes the trauma through the lifetimes. With this God said," I forgive you for you have sinned, for you are human.
The biggest mistake that you can make is to destroy your own life. So what if you have erred. You make a mistake, you take responsibility and you pay for it. That's what life is all about. Good karma's are your reward bad karma's are your downfall.
Do a good deed you will be benefited, do a bad deed you will still be benefited. The sufferings make us realise the importance of good deeds and good thoughts.
As it turned out when i awoke, i had a different perspective of life. I stopped being alive, i started living.