It was never me

The time would come when you would see,
Through the darkness of my soul....
The wrong i did, every time i screamed.......
Please believe me, it was never me..
I did hurt you & i made you cry,
I created a world & trapped you inside
Though i resent the harm caused to you
I was sure you would see through
It was my alter ego, it was never me
Please believe me, it was never me...
I tried to speak, i tried to say
The horrifying past which made me this way,
There was a reason unearthed for years...
The exposure of which brought back the fears
The touch of unknown when i was a child
The trauma i suffered how silently i cried....
Every time i wanted to say, thinking you would believe
Its still true my dear friends, it was never me

As we are today miles apart,
Not by distance but by heart
Forgiveness i do not seek cause its unfair,
For me to be forgiven who inflicted such despair,
But before i cross the miles for my final sleep
A moment of thought is all i seek
The years will go on wiping out my trace
Never will you again remember my face

I am looked down upon with disgrace
Even in the shame and shock of losing you all
Even in my misery & apparent fall
I still promise, i still scream
I still beg upon my knees
Of all the pain, the hurt the grief
Then, now and every time.......
It was never me.......